More than one year....hahaha: THere is love

I can't quite believe you are not here any more
You're the person I wake up with,
You're the sound I listen to,
You're the sun that enrich my life.

But off you go,
I don't see you around.

Are you mad at us not pulling you back?
But you seem happy
going to somewhere that you really want
I should but I can't be happy for you
Because listening to your saying your decision
is so painful.
My throught was like Australia, so dry, and burning deep inside.
Because I know i'll be missing you
Missing you so bad, that I'm gonna write a lot of words instead of crying.

We're big girls, remember?
So we don't cry.

But now I'm sitting here,
waiting my inspiration to come to knock me out of the silence of essay deadline at 5pm,
I can't hlep shouting in my heart, that I am sad. Very unhappy.

Who's gonna eat that box of Nutrigrain and leave the milk in the morning?
Who's gonna keep the light on for me when I get back home?
Who's gonna say 'let's not cook tonight' and go down and buy chicken pack from the indian korean place?Who's gonna go shower with me together after dinner?
Who's gonna fight with me before sleep

I know you do this for me as well...
An empty room really sorts out a lot of problems.
But I've never thought of you leaving this way.
Not this early!
Not so sudden!
Not like this!

I miss you already.
But I'm gonna try to change this sorrow into power
Because we have so much love to give, to share, to enjoy the life with
So there's no time to look back and sigh all the time
We'll look forward and fight for ourselves independently, but spiritually together.

I really wish I can take care of you longer.(Or the other way around?haha...)
Be safe there too.
This is no good bye, I know,
But really, take good care.
And here's still your home.